We'll turn off all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow.
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Sunday, July 30, 2006
12:49 PM  i love my baby the most(: oh bummer. what now? can this stop? i dont exactly like it. i actually hate it. i want it to be the same again. its not all my fault. so stop saying that it is. it takes two hands to clap. your not always right. i had one stick too many. ive let many down. i need to stop. right now,Ns come first. schools just a bummer. i wana play. i wana go to nz. the sisters are webcaming with me. i miss them. i miss the past when things were fine. but at the same time,i also this entry is annoying.i hate typing like that.HAHA what-so-ever la. cheers! i love the fray. Wednesday, July 26, 2006 5:54 PM i need a new layout. who wana help?
5:44 PM i like the song boston. im so tired of going to school, im so tired of thinking, im so tired of eating, im so tired of talking, im so tired of opening my eyes, im so tired of being me. no i dont want just a break, i need it to stop.stop.just stop. dont call me emo,i'll bite the fuck outta you. i love my mommy.random Sunday, July 23, 2006 12:34 PM Cause I built you a home in my heart,With rotten wood, it decayed from the start.(i still cant figure if this line is a bad thing or a good thing?help me out here secret) you left i died, i went you cried. And I knew I'd made horrible call, And now the state line felt like the Berlin wall, And there was no doubt about which side I was on. H.E.double hockey stick.HAHA. I'm a war, of head versus heart, And it's always this way.My head is weak, my heart always speaks, Before I know what it will say. Not that you're the one Not to say I'm right Not to say today And not to say a thing tonight But suffice it to say We're leaving things unsaid We sing ourselves to sleep Watching the day lie down instead And we are leaving some things unsaid And we are breathing deeper instead We're both pretty sure Neither one can tell We seem difficult What we got is hard as hell A hundred thousand words could not quite explain So I walk you to your car And we can talk it out in the rain And we are leaving some things unsaid And we are breathing deeper instead And we are leaving some things unsaid I can sing myself to sleep No more Not that you're the one Not to say I'm right Not to say today And not to say a thing tonight sometimes its best leaving things unsaid. Sunday, July 16, 2006 3:17 PM i did choose to keep it low. oh well i dont think whatever i say now matters cause its already out.and i know 5 just an extra but im not asking for a group of 5.maybe i just need a time machine to make things right?i dont know man. but if given a choice,i rather everyone else be happy while i feel all the bad stuff myself.seriously right now,im lost.i dont know what to do or say.i dont know where to go now cause i feel so lost.maybe things will get better.but will that fucked up heart of mine ever feel better?hurr. i thought this year was bad enough cause of the whole track thing which i manage to keep it low for my heartache.but now with this,everythings just coming out. thanks hammie.for listening and ravi for being the babe that you are.i love you all. goodbye. Friday, July 14, 2006 6:42 PM secret: i said i know what im doing but i did it anyway.i know ive lost many and hurt all.but has it ever came across to you that it wasnt easy?did you put yourself in my shoes?i didnt want the truth to be out.but it wasnt something easy.it got out anyway.what am i to do?walkin around like a fuckin dart board sucks.walking pass you not disturbin you,huggin you,talking to you sucks.do you know how much YOU mean to me?dont say yes cause you dont and you will never know. sexy indian girl: i really hope your okay.im sorry. to you: your ans will be out soon. to all of the above: i fucking miss you girls.does that matter?take care of yourselves now.till then, goodbye my world. Sunday, July 09, 2006 12:22 AM mixture of the two songs that plays in my head.tikcuf! What a beautiful smile Can I stay for a while On this beautiful night Maybe a greater thing will happen It's really good to hear your voice saying my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those words it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye edited. my today: long, nice, great, funny. now i just wana lay in bed(: goodnight world. cheers! Friday, July 07, 2006 11:49 PM my legs are super pain from god knows what.like there's cold wind blowing.hurr.anyway out with dear liane and claudia.we watched superman and claudia kept fallin asleep it was super funny.haha the show was longggg la.haha anyway the show eneded around 5plus then off to go find my girlfriend cause she was upset but when i got there she kept saying shes okay.hurr.anyway yes sent liane off then walked around with dumb dumb claudia who's really retarded then went to meet mom at centerpoint and we shop shop shop then went for dinner which sucked:/ hurr.so i didnt have much.which is always good.then headed to OG and i got new sheets which claud and i picked out then headed home after sending claud then here i am.hurr.the dumb laptop has a really bad wireless connection its fucking annoying la.hurr.anyway dad just got home and i dont know why but at that point of time i thought it was marilyn.hurr.gosh i must really miss her. anyway i miss going out with my bitches!yes,ravi and the gang.hurr bbq soon pleaseeeeeeeeee.your are all so not on la.everytime set the date then cancel.haha we're all so horrible.all so one of a kind.haha!hurr. they did well for relays,good for them(: cheers! Thursday, July 06, 2006 8:17 PM i can hardly keep my eyes open these days.the mother has been home late and that equals no dinner for mabel since shes such a bum so that also means diet's good(: all i need is to go tannin now cause im becoming white= like clara chai=not good girlfriend. hurr.im feeling so i-dont-know.track meets have started and nope i haven been planning to go down to watch.which is kinda evil cause im not watchin my friends but im supportin them on the inside(:oh well.mel was online today.she talked to me and yewj was annoying us.haha but he's funny.talked to her about her dogs yadayada.anyway what shocked me was that she actually said'i really miss you'.haha i mean it has been ages since i last talked to this sister of mine.oh well.haha i miss them. i dont wana go to school tml.i wana go to the airport.i wana take a plan ride.i want my favorite chocolate which im not sure what its called.haha hurr.i wana go out with nisha.and i want my sucker to be happy again.i wana run again.i wana be fast again.hurr.i wana shoot myself la.haha i love ravinder kaur the monkey.haha byebye world. cheers!
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